Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Journal

I write a journal every day in my head.
I smile, I cry, I laugh, I frown. I even curse.
And then i tear it into pieces and watch it burn.

I burn a journal every day in my head.
And then i wish i had just written it on pieces of paper instead.
In black, in blue, in red and green.
And then torn it to pieces and watched it burn for real.


Thursday, May 10, 2012

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Balloon pants 1


Right in front of me, the lane stretches into the sun.
As I walk sticking to the 1 foot shade the muddy walls throw, I can hear the other three gallivanting behind. Sucking on their ice-lollies. Filling the dust with 'Sluurrrppp'y echoes.

As we walk into the fiery yellow someone calls out to me. Squinting eyes look around as I spot Ash on the first floor veranda of a bark. Well, almost. Correction: barked-green-architecture. I leap across as he chucks his cigarette and punishes it with his foot (Bad boy, you!). 

He takes us in and down the old wood into the primeval engine station. The ceiling so high, I never would have imagined a one-storeyed hut to enclose a machine-massacre inside. In the cool, I can feel rivulets of water slide down my torso. Huffing and puffing I borrow some friendly deodorant from one of them and have a misty shower right away. They follow.

Age-old railway engines are stacked next to each other like toy trains. Iron and lead and copper- metal smells so rusty otherwise. I'll have a glass of your best Zinc-fandel please! 1896. 1853. 1900. 1919. It's a museum. Old colonial engines lined up inactive. But they don't look outdated. They look rather royal. Maharajahs sitting broad-chested, enjoying their suite, blowing cigar puffs and clinking glasses while they share their cunnilingal secrets. I style my air-moustache greeting all - an assuring pat to some, a princessly eye-flutter to the others. 

((((...DING... DONG...)))

The clock strikes 4 and vibrates every metallic cell underground. 
"Oh fuck, its 4...” one of them calls out. "Let's go we're gonna be late". True. I ask Ash to join us, but his greasy palms are sunken into work. Another, another. 


Saturday, May 5, 2012

Who


And then she came
tickling me from the back
giggle to giggle, hurt to heart
I knew her from before, and from after
I knew her but never did make her my own
Never talk to strangers, my mother had told
But i became strange
and more cold

Who are you?, i ask so few
it echoed back
cutting through




Friday, May 4, 2012